Why I am the Way I Am!As I get on in years I am trying to figure out why I am the way I am. I mean I don’t seem that unusual on the outside but on the inside I know I am wired very differently than most males, a fact the I am beginning to enjoy even more. I have been a closeted cross dresser for as long as I can remember and I have not given that much thought until recently. I must have had some suppressed memories that are beginning to unfold which indicates there is a reason why I am the way I am. I came from a normal family, I was an only c***d and my dad was an over the road truck driver so he was gone most weekdays which left my mother and me. She worked to after school I went to my Aunts house until my mom picked me up. My Aunt had 4 daughters which I was very close with, so as you can see I was the only boy surrounded by girls and women in my life. As we got closer to puberty as you can imagine my cousins and I started edirne escort noticing that there was differences in us. Not just that we were boys and girls, but that we dressed differently and acted differently. I remember us kind of always wrestling around and just playing grab ass and as time went on with my older 2 cousins we started “accidently” touching each other! Although we knew had different parts we have never touched or seen them. One day after school the younger cousins taking a nap and my aunt out running errands my older cousin walked in on me while I was standing up going pee. She opened the door and looked in but instead of closing the door she walked in and continued to look at my penis while I urinated. She would not quit looking and I had just gotten back from school so I could not stop mid stream. So when I was finished and ready to zip up she stated “wow I have never elazığ escort seen that before” I was a little scared but she asked if she could touch it, and I sat sure. I did like the way it felt. So she then asked me to move so she could go to the bathroom, and I was fully expecting her to stand up and when she sat down I noticed she did not have a cock. I asked why not, to which she answered “because she was a girl and I was a boy”. I was fascinated watching the pee run our of her vagina and when she finished I asked if I could touch her and she said yes and I remember something else was the she had the cutest pink polka dot panties around her ankles. I could not take my eyes off them and I started touching them so she asked if I would like to try time on? I said sure and asked if she wanted to try on my tighty whity’s to which she said ok. So we traded underwear and I was in heaven I erzincan escort looked so cute in her panties with my little flaccid bulge sticking out. We as you can imagine this escalated to a point where I was now going to be there sister to which I never objected. So every day after school I just hoped my Aunt was not going to be home and my cousins and I could lounge around in our panties and have girl talk. I loved those days and especially in the summer when I was there every day, I especially like the hot days when it was just us 3 and they would let me wear one of their bikini’s in the pool. Well time passed and I started getting hard when this happened and I was at the age where I could stay home alone. I was so bummed that I could not wear my cousins panties anymore, but alas I home alone and my moms clothes were at my disposal. I raided her closet every time I could. Putting on her wig, wearing make up, and since I grew up in the early 70’s all my moms foundation wear. Girdles with garters, slips, bra’s with 4 or 5 hooks, man I had it all! This continued for awhile and I got away from crossdressing for some years and now I have my own wardrobe and I think back to those pretty pink polka dot panties.